We finally put up our Christmas tree, and now it's actually starting to feel like Christmas for real. I'm super excited for the months of December and January.

p.s. if you want to see a really cute movie, go see August Rush, it's incredible

I really don't like this blog anymore.

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1146721384

HAHA
I laughed for hours
oh. help. me.

"We must look upon the world, with all its delights and all its attractions, with suspicion and reserve. We are called to a higher Kingdom, we are touched with a diviner Spirit. It is not that He forbids us this or that comfort or indulgence; it is not that He is stern, demanding us to follow a narrow path. But we who love our Lord and whose affections are set on Heavenly things voluntarily and gladly lay aside the things that charm and ravish the world, that, for our part, our hearts may be ravished with the things of Heaven that our whole being may be poured forth in constant and unreserved devotion in the service of the Lord who died to save us.”
-Amy Carmichael

God amazes me so much lately. I think I’m realizing His goodness more and more, He has given me more than I know, and so often I'm still jealous and greedy, and really impatient. I'm impatient alot, and it's not a good thing. I think I need to learn to just lay back sometimes, and just wait for things. It scares me alot when I have to let go and give things to God, because I like to be in control of things in my life, but it can't always be like that. And it scares me alot when God's telling me to wait and see, when I want to know now. I'm scared that things won't work out the way I'd like them too, but at the same time I'm scared I'm going to mess this up. Trust...

Freely you have received, freely give.
-Matthew 10:8

more of Him, less of me.

snow!!

I'm really happy these days.
And this time it's for a reason,
But it's a secret :)

"I'm just trying to do what is right. And I know this is right. Though my heart can argue otherwise, my brain knows this is the only way. If I have good intentions, why I am I tortured by this? Do you not see where I am coming form? Even if you don't completely understand? I'm tired of feeling guilty for doing something that I know is the right thing for both of us. And if I try to fully explain why, you still won't understand because you can't relate. And the more I try to explain, the more confused you get; the farther you fall away. You don't understand because you don't want to understand, not really anyway. You don't understand because you can't accept itAnd you can't accept it because you refuse to understand. I can only do so much.I refuse to be bound by guilt when I am doing all that I possibly can to make things okay."

it's crazy how much I relate to that right now.

"But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."
-Luke 6:26-28

I was reading my Bible the other day and I found that verse, and underlined it in red. Because I need to remember it alot more.

I miss you. Things aren't the same without you right here with me.